i've been so confused and emotionally drained and i feel like i need help in some way shape or form. I mean i lost a good friend well at least i thought she was good friend but the way she downgraded me all the time wasn't right but i always defended her and said oh thats jus how she is..... and well i don't regret the fall out i think it needed to happen so i could get my life back cuz personally my life was wrapped around her schedual and mine and i felt like i had no time for myself.

but also i started dating this amazing guy in February and i'm head of heels for him i love him but i'm beginning to get angry and upset alot with him cuz he constantly pushes the time we hav together or something comes up and we can't see eachother. and i kno that all the instinces were out of his control with the stuff that happened and got in the way of us seeing eachother and that her loves me but its just really hard when the little time we get to spend together gets put aside cuz of other things that come up. n its jus been reminding me of stuff in my past n its making me worry and start to shut him out but he tries to push his way through at a pace to let me kno he's really there and he does love me and that he's not gonna jus walk away like i keep thinking.... but thats what i'm used to and its hard to jus shut that off.

i really don't kno what to do and i don't kno if i even explained that right but i need advice.!.